A Cubicle Warrior

I never thought I would be a cubicle warrior. Someone who sits in front of a computer eight to nine hours a day, changing the world one website at a time. When I finally put my mind into a career path, I mostly saw myself as an educator, changing the world one lab assignment at a time.

I graduated from my MIT in 2011. That ended "The Adventure - Part 1" and ushered in "The Adventure - Part 2". With that additional level of educational attainment, I knew I had an added edge if I decided to apply for a teaching position somewhere.

But how to teach something I have never experienced fully and only through books or theoretically? I decided to gain some experience in the field first so that my lessons would not be limited to journals and research.

And so here I am. Straining my eyes in front of the computer, getting constant back pain day by day. I kind of miss having the compulsive need to drink ginger to ease the vocal stress caused by shouting into a large lecture hall. Now, my saliva would dry up if I merely sat in front of my desk all day, if I neglected to socialize with my workmates.

Some days I wonder why I'm doing this. I'd love to say I'm one of those people who get a high when they breathe in jQuery, PHP, CSS, and HTML code. But unfortunately, I'm not. I'm skilled at what I'm doing. I make it a point that I finish my work well and leave a mark of excellence whenever I can. But to wake up and say "I was made for this!" - pass me a hot cup of coffee, please. I'll give an answer once I'm done with my daily dose of joe.

I believe I have a greater passion for teaching, as I have with writing. But then there are some things that you just can't jump into, not if you want to do it well. There are seasons to wait, seasons to learn, seasons to wander around in the wilderness. When we pass through these, we can then flourish in the promise of the promised land.

I still have a lot to learn. I still have a lot to give in this stage of my journey. Konting push pa.

In the meantime, I shall do my best to bloom where I am planted.

A selfie during one of my first few days of work. Ages ago.

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